SUICIDE
My heart has been bleeding for past 27 years. Some wounds are the type they will never close up and scar over. And some memories are like cannonballs, once they hit, you will never get fixed up the destroyment they leave behind. And some memories…
GAME OVER
For myself the trust and empathy is everything, indifference is a poison to me for all possible ways. In all kind of interpersonals not only in a relationship, but also what comes to business relationships, friendships and family relations. I have screwed up in my…
HE’S GONE
He passed away. Yes. But I still can’t face it. I have always faced everything, from eye to eye. Always. But now I can’t. Why? Let me tell you. When I even think of the fact that he is not here any longer, it feels…
HOW TO IMPROVE POSITIVITY?
When talking about positivity and how to stay positive due such hard time, I have something to say about it. I also have some tips for improving your mindset under intolerable stress, sadness, anger.. what ever feeling which ties you up into negative energy. Is…
THE LUCKY ONE – GET AWAY FROM HARMFUL PAST
Let me ask you something. When you were a kid, the youngest self you can remember, what did you dream about? How about when you grew older, did your dreams stay same or changed, how and why? How about now, when you look at yourself…
BREATHING THE WORLD
I can clearly remember the time I had anyone else but my little Bean beside me, no one else in my life. He made my whole world. For many people it’s impossible to understand how it’s even possible human can be that alone and really…
CLINGING TO HIM
It’s 12th day without BenBen. It feels like few days only, because I have been hanging on him in my mind without letting go. I can’t remember what have I done these days during almost two weeks, I have been like a zombie all days…
THE LOVE ALWAYS WINS
My rescued babies have taught me a lot. When I rescued my BenBen 6 years ago, I had no idea he would help me to handle my own past and traumas. When I was a child I couldn’t believe anything would ever heal my wounds…
DEEP INSIDE ME
Elämääni on ehtinyt koskettaa moni asia syvästi, tunteet ovat ottaneet vallan ja nenälleen on lennetty enemmän kuin tarpeeksi. Kiireessä stressin painaessa ohimoilla sitä unohtaa pysähtyä huomaamaan asioita, jotka käytännössä vain lipuvat ohitse. Osa niistä on mahdollisuuksia, joihin emme huomaa tarttua. Painamme menemään kuin viimeistä päivää…