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MEMORY LOSS AFTER VIOLENCE
After the Tv show (Sinkut Paljaana) it’s been hard. So much violence. For what and why? Someone admiring me so much that he wants to own me. As police said: “if I can’t have her, no one will”. Madness. MADNESS!!! 3 woundings, one beating and…
CHOOSING – TRUST ON YOUR VALUES
How to know how to make them right decisions in life? As we can’t see to the future we have to be aware of ourselves; our real feelings and where they are coming from for following them. Not without understanding that, really knowing ourselves, we…
IT’S TOUGH BUT YOU CAN PUSH THROUGH IT – SE ON RANKKAA, MUT SÄ SELVIIT SIITÄ
Ohjelma on nyt ulkona. Olen puhunut blogissa avoimesti kaikesta; elämästä, ja sehän tarkoitus. Kertoa teille, rakkaat lukijat, että meillä jokaisella on meidän oman kamppailumme ja taistelumme. Jos ei fyysisesti, niin henkisesti, mielellisesti. Aina. Puetpa sä päälle sitten Guccia tai Versacea – tekeekö se sun olon…
STOCKHOLM DREAMS, OUR DREAMS THO
It’s impossible to tell what’s the best thing in Stockholm. I am still ready to bet it’s the feeling. I have friends here, I have even something more, the city is beautiful, people are so nice and seeing everything around just calm me down and…
TV SHOW: BEAUTY QUEEN AND SINGLE – SINKUN PALJAANA 3 KAUSI
No niin, se olis sit ulkona nyt. Ei vaan ihan kohta. Kaksi päivää vielä ja sit pääsette näkemään ja kokemaan, mitä ja minkä eteen me ollaan paiskittu kuvauksia koko viime kesä ja pitkälle syksyyn. Revitty sydämemme ja mielemme auki koko kansalle. Miksi? Ei meistä kukaan…
ARE YOU A VICTIM OR HERO?
I often hear people telling how badly they have been treated. That’s kinda natural as when something negative happens, it hurts. But if we close our eyes from the truth, from the reality that all of us here are hurting and suffering one day, one…
I HEARD YOU – GOOD BYE, FOREVER
When you go through a lot “successfully” which means just surviving alive, in life and people kinda automatically start telling you “you are so strong”. Also “what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger” they say. Bullshit. Let me tell you. Also I thought that there…
FISH TOMATO CURRY RECIPE – LEMPEÄ KUHA-TOMAATTICURRY
On vierähtänyt hetki, kun olen viimeksi jakanut reseptejä blogissa. Itse asiassa, siitä on yli kahdeksan kuukautta. Tuoreet ruokatarpeet ja kiireettömät viikonloput kuitenkin aina houkuttelevat kokeilemaan uutta ja kehittelemään entistä maukkaampia reseptejä. Olen rakastanut reseptien kehittelyä niin kauan kun muistan, jo lapsena opin että vain muutamasta…
TO BE BRAVE OR RUN AWAY BECAUSE IT MAY BREAK YOUR HEART
Good night sweet dear ones. As always when I am writing, there’s a certain point of my post. Not everyone gets it, but if even few of my readers do, I feel it matters. Not often, well, kinda never I start my post by revealing…
SUICIDE
My heart has been bleeding for past 27 years. Some wounds are the type they will never close up and scar over. And some memories are like cannonballs, once they hit, you will never get fixed up the destroyment they leave behind. And some memories…
GAME OVER
For myself the trust and empathy is everything, indifference is a poison to me for all possible ways. In all kind of interpersonals not only in a relationship, but also what comes to business relationships, friendships and family relations. I have screwed up in my…
SAVING YOURSELF
After all the truth is we arrive to this world alone, and we will leave from here all by ourselves. There are million things people around can do for you to make you feel comfortable, loved, happy, safe.. but nothing that they could do to…
SANTA DIDN’T BRING ME COAL THOUGH I SKIPPED CHRISTMAS
For me it’s easier to talk about brain as that’s where the feelings actually will be created. But yeah, when talking about broken heart it really feels like that. But how about then when you are in love with someone? To me it’s just chemistry:…
WHO’S THE MASTER TO DECIDE
“We are adults, we are making this decision together. No one else, just us: you and I.” The truth is there will always be a broken heart. The question is are we seriously ready to take that step and crush someone else for our own…
PRICE OF BEAUTY
I was, and actually still am, sitting in Stockholm at kitchen table and finishing quick lunch while airing beddings and cleaning up, when quickly opened the feedback channels (on the background there’s still playing Isak Danielson’s Save Me Now (sorry neighbors)). It stopped me. The…