SUICIDE
My heart has been bleeding for past 27 years. Some wounds are the type they will never close up and scar over. And some memories are like cannonballs, once they hit, you will never get fixed up the destroyment they leave behind. And some memories...
GAME OVER
For myself the trust and empathy is everything, indifference is a poison to me for all possible ways. In all kind of interpersonals not only in a relationship, but also what comes to business relationships, friendships and family relations. I have screwed up in my...
SAVING YOURSELF
After all the truth is we arrive to this world alone, and we will leave from here all by ourselves. There are million things people around can do for you to make you feel comfortable, loved, happy, safe.. but nothing that they could do to...
SANTA DIDN’T BRING ME COAL THOUGH I SKIPPED CHRISTMAS
For me it’s easier to talk about brain as that’s where the feelings actually will be created. But yeah, when talking about broken heart it really feels like that. But how about then when you are in love with someone? To me it’s just chemistry:...
WHO’S THE MASTER TO DECIDE
“We are adults, we are making this decision together. No one else, just us: you and I.” The truth is there will always be a broken heart. The question is are we seriously ready to take that step and crush someone else for our own...
PRICE OF BEAUTY
I was, and actually still am, sitting in Stockholm at kitchen table and finishing quick lunch while airing beddings and cleaning up, when quickly opened the feedback channels (on the background there’s still playing Isak Danielson’s Save Me Now (sorry neighbors)). It stopped me. The...
HE’S GONE
He passed away. Yes. But I still can’t face it. I have always faced everything, from eye to eye. Always. But now I can’t. Why? Let me tell you. When I even think of the fact that he is not here any longer, it feels...
STOCKHOLM SYNDROME
A pretty strong name for the post, but I actually had no other way in my mind to name this as this is not going to be very happy post. Tho, are my posts, my deep pondering, ever really very happy? No, they are not,...
AIKUISTEN JOULUKALENTERI
Osta oma aikuisten joulukalenterisi täältä >> Olenko jo puhunut aiheesta tarpeeksi: joulusta ja joulukalentereista? Ehkä, no en. En todellakaan ole. On nimittäin ihan pakko jakaa vielä ajatuksia, joita ollaan palloteltu kavereiden kanssa aikuisten joulukalenteriin liittyen. Seksi on aiheena tärkeä, onhan se yksi ihmisen perustarpeista. Jos...
NEEDS BUT NOT NEEDY
There is different kind of love. Actually, I would say there are as many variations of love as there are people. As the truth is we all love our own personal way. And, also we all have our own personal needs what comes to receiving...